It has been a while since I last blog. Hello again. If there's still someone reading. Anyways, nothing much happened in this holiday. This holiday seems to be so long and boring. I've no idea what to do besides cleaning my room and still cleaning my room. I'm done with it, I guess. I am lazy to test all the pens and stuff so I shall just leave them in that drawer which I wouldn't open it even once a month. Others are fine, I got all the form3 books that I've got in my room, finally. But it still seems to be so messy, which I don't know why. Really.
Anyways, I got many things recycled as I don't need them anymore, as it's just so tiring keep them, as I've no time to even look at them. I threw, wait no, recycled so many things, I've never done this before, I've never throw away, so many things, so much memories.
It doesn't matter anymore, anyway. Everything is gonna restart next year, I hope. It's going to be a whole new start? I guess so but from the bottom of my heart I really really doubt that. How long do you think a person needs, to make something which really matters to him becomes something that doesn't matter at all? At all. Well, this is referring to many things and not just what most of you will think, you know the prefect thing.
Many things, many many things. More than you expected.
Everything seems to be so good from the outside, it seems to be so beautiful. Life seems to be just perfectly fine. You've got the chance to go to school, you've your girlfriends, you've got nice clothes, you've got all the electronic items you always wanted. You've got everything you once desired. But everything doesn't seem to be enough. You're not happy. You feel incomplete. Why?
Ah, I've no idea what I am trying to say. Maybe it's all because I haven't been blogging for a while. I totally believe that I should really spend this holiday doing at least, something. You know, like finish up my holiday homework, practice my piano, or something else. At least something, I suppose. Actually my whole point is I don't feel like doing anything therefore I am trying so hard to make myself feel like doing something.
Something lah, please, just something.
Gosh.
Dive from the blue sky
to see who I really am
Facing my desire
with the answer
to start again
be brave again
to see who I really am
Facing my desire
with the answer
to start again
be brave again
