I don't think it's the best choice to blog at this moment cause I am totally afraid that I will type something not very good and thats totally a bad sight.
I am sorry for what I've done but I don't think you guys did everything perfectly well too. You guys don't understand, just don't understand. You guys just assume how I feel by judging how I look. It's okay because I am used to it. Nobody has ever understands me. Have you guys realized that you guys never try to understand who I really am? Every time I confess about my feelings towards something, all you guys do is nod and say okay and act like you guys care a lot but in the end I find no comfort from anyone of you. Maybe it is just my problem I guess. I am a complicated person, I always know that. Some people around me have been saying, oh gosh you are so mature, I would love to know that, and I would love to be a mature person but sometimes it sucks a lot. Every time I tried to say something or even explain something, people don't seem to understand and instead they thought I am weird. My feeling now is so hard to explain. All I can do is to avoid you. I just don't want to face you. You can do whatever you'd love and I am sorry to say but I am gonna judge you based on everything you do. I am just being honest. People say don't judge a book by its cover but I am sorry right now I don't fucking care about what you think because what you're gonna do is the most important thing. I doubt that you can face all the consequences ahead but I guess it is gonna be fine if you give it a try. But I do hope that our days wouldn't be filled with complains after that. And don't forget who is the one who never gives me support at the first place and who's the one who even think it's better off that I got fired? Anyways, for you accept or reject, everything is not going to be the same. May you make the right choice.
Sometimes it's so hard for me, life is so hard for me. I don't even know why I freaking care about all these shit. FML.
Here I go again.
