Guess this is blog, so I can type whatever I want here.
Im sorry if this post start going emo again.
Cause my life is.
School wasn't good today.
Expect the letters to make everything end, or get better.
It didn't, it got worse.
I'm not mad anymore, I'm not jealous of anything, seriously.
I'm unexpectedly hurt, badly. No matter you believe me or not, I Am Hurt.
I didn't even expect myself to feel this bad, as I thought I was having the bestest friends on earth.
I thought. Someone proved me wrong.
No dear, I wasn't jealous.
No matter you believe or not, I wasn't. Not even 1%.
I was mad at first. And now I am hurt.
Not hurt because of jealousy.
Its because, you didn't care about my feelings.
I wonder if I actually appear in your mind for a second when you were gonna accept the bet.
I wondered. And I came to a conclusion: You didn't care. Not even a bit.
You told me for you the bet was just entirely for fun.
I know you have a right to do anything you like, but I thought we were best friends.
& best friends care about each other.
Eh, no, we're just BLARDY FRIENDS.
Ouch.
I know you don't give a damn.
I hate myself for feeling hurt, thats all.
Maybe you think it is just plain silly to get mad at these things, maybe.
Well, for me, when it all combined, its not just 'those things' anymore.
Different people different thinking, gotta respect? I guess so.
Like I said in the the letter, you're a good friend and maybe I don't deserve someone like you.
Maybe Im not good enough.
Too emotional I guess.
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Will edit.
Although Im not so happy lately, but still...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JHUN-HO & YUAN FANG(:
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY DING SHENG(:
-shinn-
