Can't tell how dead Im feeling, But Im not feeling so well.
Things are getting worse.
I didn't mean every word I said, but cause of anger, I just said something that I didn't mean.
Well, it doesn't matter that much.
How I wish the moment i said IT DOESN'T MATTER, it really doesn't.
I was about to have a heart-to-heart post today,
but seems like its not gonna solve any of my problems.
I feel sick and I just wanna run away from all these.
Gosh, help.
Can I have time machine?
I wanna fast forward this moment.
Im serious, I hold back my tears. I never cry for these.
I tried, I acted like nothing happened.
I thought of forgiving, I thought of letting go.
At least I do! Why can't everyone just understand me for A BIT?
You guys get tired. How about me?
Im not made out of steel or some kind of metal.
I have a heart, I have feelings!
OH, MAYBE YOU THINK I DONT, OR MAYBE IT DOESNT MATTER TO YOU, NOT AT ALL.
For you they might be JUST A GAME, but for me its not.
For you she is just FORGIVABLE, but for me, I want to, but I can't.
I can't do it. I wanna set myself free too.
WHY DO YOU GUYS JUST CAN'T UNDERSTAND ME FOR A LIL'?
WHY DO YOU GUYS THINK THAT ITS ALL SO EASY?
WHY DO YOU GUYS ALWAYS THINK THAT I WAS JUST TRYING TO BE MEAN?
WHY DO YOU GUYS THINK THAT ITS ALL OKAY?
WHY CAN YOU GUYS JUST IGNORE OUR FEELINGS AND DO WHATEVER YOU LOVE?
WHY?
TELL ME WHY. PLEASE?
I have my conclusion of this year already,
BOYS ARE IMPORTANT.
FRIENDS AIN'T. NOT EVEN BESTFRIENDS MATTER.
POWER MADE YOU STAY AT THE GOOD CONDITION.
ESPECIALLY IN SCHOOL.
AND NO MATTER HOW THINGS GO, NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS FOR YOU.
NO ONE CARES, YOUR FEELING DOESNT MATTER,
AND YOUR LIFE WILL STILL GO ON,
EVENTHOUGH YOU CAN'T SEEM TO MOVE ON.
