Hello world, hello you
I have used days to finish my Sejarah mind map and finally I'm done! with one chapter. I still have a long way to go! Now I am seriously having doubts if I can finish all my work on time.. I have quite a lot of Add Maths work, to be exact. Well, probably it's true when they say there ain't A LOT of work, but then I sort of forgotten almost everything so yeah I have to like check the reference book for every single question that I'm trying to solve.
YES Camp was really awesome. The best part of camp was that I made so many new friends. It was rather awkward when I first met them and when we have to sit in a circle and draw our flags... but yeah we got pretty close very soon :) It was to my surprise when they appointed me as their leader which I swear I didn't want to be because honestly I am not very comfortable with the idea of being the representative when I don't even know anyone of them.
I'd say my team members are very very quiet people. We are all okay with each other, we got closer than before but yeah do you get the idea? It's just that...we haven't exactly open our hearts completely to each. Well, I know that takes time.
I was quite close with a few of my team members, though. They were amazingly supportive. Before camp I was so, so damn afraid that I'll have to do all the flying fox, abseiling etc. etc. I am afraid of height. Very very afraid of height. My hands will get cold and I will freak out. I always thought the support from others wouldn't make much a difference for a stubborn person like me. But surprisingly it did work. Throughout the flying fox, obstacle course and climbing over the 12 feet wall activities, we just had this kind of connection between each other. It sounds ridiculous, yes I know, but honestly I could feel that connection amongst us. And I was so grateful for that.
There were 9 of us in the group and 8 of us managed to climb over the 12 feet wall. The power of teamwork! :) We don't blame the last guy, though. He was obviously too tired. He carried so many of us! Obstacle course was rather scary. I had heaps of obstacles that I couldn't go through... but the guys helped me a lot. Now I know how much supportive team members can actually do.
My group's facilitator was Frederick. Even he told us that we did a great job. We don't complain nor we blame. Which was good. I am not exaggerating it. This camp was just plain amazing :)
The part which I was looking forward to was the night walk. Night Jungle Trekking! How awesome is that? However, it was rather disappointing because the route was so short, and we basically just walk a smooth and pleasant path.. Not to say if there were big log/rocks I wouldn't need any help and stuff, but I expected it to be more exciting than what we had.
I had fun though, with my night walk partner. Holding hands and looking at the stars. Supposed to be romantic but in this case - it was because he said I look like I do not know how to take care of myself?! and that I am very scared of the darkness like seriously omg I've made myself clear for a couple of times... - we are just good friends. It's quite weird calling ourselves good friends when we barely knew each other for 4 days. But it's true. And dude, he is 15 :) More like my brother. Rumours did spread, though. Among my group members, about us. Which sort of caused some incidents that isn't really worth mentioning.
He took good care of me, though. It wouldn't have been the same without him, and I am just so glad that I met such a good friend. There was this session during camp called Know Me Better. And I heard so many stories from so many people. Very moved by what they said. And it's true when they said there's a reason why everyone else is the way they are right now.
Can't wait to meet them again during forum! It was my last chance to attend YES Camp and I am just so glad that I went eventhough it was because of some responsibility crap. This camp certainly changed my life in so many ways. Honestly there are many sessions in this camp which I would like to share with you guys. I'll just update about that a little by a little when I upload the photos for camp for each blog post.
It's honestly easier to blog with a photo uploaded. I tend to look at photos and think back what happened. Memories are wonderful, isn't it?
This month, I lost a best friend. I was trying to act normal during camp but everyone noticed how quiet I got, out of a sudden. I'd try to smile though. And I truly enjoyed camp - it's a pretty good distraction - eventhough I know in reality, I've lost something which I once treasured the most. They said best friend doesn't let go easily. Clearly, I shouldn't have trusted our friendship so much. And I am just so damn sorry that I ruined everything.
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| Balau Sengkawang Air (Group 3) We trust. We overcome. We acheive. |
