I am gonna start off with my favorite subject .. :D
I know I won't be able to do such easy Chemistry paper after this holiday.
I mean, I don't think I'll ever get such homework for college...
Sighh, I don't even want to imagine how difficult things studies are going to be next year.
Coping, balancing, dealing with all those things which I sometimes call them nonsense because they make-no-sense, laughing at lame jokes, touched etc. etc.
2012, not very far away, isn't it?
Well don't we just hate people who only do things that will make them look good and popular. People who take the credits of giving 'new' ideas when apparently ideas ain't originally from them.
Me: Ah whatever, I'm okay already. Just got lil' annoyed when I first knew about it.
Sheen: Oh, it happened some time ago?
Me: Nah, around 15 minutes before I texted you? Ahaha we should have gotten used to this a LONG time ago!
Sheen: Oh..Haha. Yea. We know about it and experienced it but never got used to it.
I'm not desperate for credits from others nor I'm desperate to be the centre of attention where people please me and stuff, but the feeling when you brainstormed and contributed an idea and it's actually a good idea where people accept it and stuff. Just after a while people just said that it's originally from them and you're not included as 'them' and they act like nothing happened - that feeling is just so disturbing. I just feeling telling them hey the idea is not from you GUYS hey it's from just ME -_-
But that'd just make it look like some lousy person who's desperate. Or maybe more than that. Which is not my initial intention so I am going to keep quiet about this and act like nothing happened. Because I'm pretty sure after a while - which means all the busy planning and preperation and stuff - I won't even remember that idea was from me....
I just don't like the feeling that they gave me because it's not the credits but the respect that I - everybody, depending on the case - deserve.
Thank God I actually get to say whatever I want here. Sigh it's true when madam told me the people around me ain't immature - they're just way too mature because they know easy tricks and ways to get what they want. And I was just like hey are you trying to say I'm stupid? -_-
After everything it turned out that the immature child is ME. omg omg. big news.
Well good thing is that I realized how important Sheen is to me because she was the first person I thought after I found out all this crap. HEH MY BEST FRIEND IS AWESOME :')
Off to balance the equations! :D Heh I have no idea why I am excited.
You have to use your failures as stepping stones to success. You have to
maintain a fine balance between hope and despair. In the end it’s all a question
of balance.
-Rohinton Mistry
P/s: Do you have a friend that treats you as an option and they just kept on saying that they'll always be there for you? They kept on replying late and when you ask them to go if they ain't free and they just say no no I am fine then they reply you so late that you feel like you're a burden or you begin to think that they're talking to someone better - or maybe you're just not worth their time. I've a friend like that and I am not sad. That's rather strange but this friend has always been like that so sometimes I wonder how did I got so attached to telling this person things and make myself feel worse in the end --
Why do I always being treated as an option by that person which I treated as a major character in my life? ):
