Not really gonna blog about life today. Life's like really a mess these days. We shall just ignore it :) Feel like posting something special but I find nothing special in me.
Days by days. I've never expect to receive such a big birthday present in my life. So surprised. I've never realized what I should be realizing days before until now. It's okay if you don't get what I am trying to say. Really.
I am getting a step closer to freedom. Yes, that's my birthday present (: I gotta thankgod for that. I am just using a different way to get what I want. Maybe I didn't even use the way, it just shows up and it was already a fact or maybe a problem that I should face or solve.
I really wish I can rewind my time, and go back to form1. I really miss those days with Rachel.
Or rewind more, back to primary school, and be how I used to be. No matter how terrible or childish I was, until this point, at this moment, I don't care. Just let it be. I just wanna be back to those days.
Sadly, I can't.
I am trying to type a post and do anything, I am just trying to type my feelings out. Indirectly. And I'll stop doing it. I'll lock my heart up, and throw away the key.
Throw the key to a place where nobody will go to.
Oh well. I've just been living for not even 14 years yet. I really don't want to stop blogging. But I think blogging shouldn't be something that causing me problems when I post stuff up, it shouldn't be something I've pressure on, it is suppose to be something that I can go to, without even thinking twice.
I've lost the right to even do so.
I am sorry for everything.
Happy Birthday, Shin Wei.
You're officially a trouble-maker for 14 years.
blog officially closed.
