Nithya: Every single time they put me down, I will look back at those photos I've taken with those PBS kids, and realize how fortunate and blessed I am, and it seems like everything is going to be okay.
After going to so many orphanages, I am still not very good with kids. Honestly speaking here.
My study plan will officially start next month - I am just a week away - and I am actually looking forward to it! It's good to have an aim to go for, it gives life purposes. But well, I am going to have Sarah, Dhanya and Nithya with me for the study plan. And we're planning to be there for each other and yess, make sure each other doesn't slack. HAHA.
I am so in love with all the acoustic covers by Boyce Avenue. It's a pretty good timing to be in love with them when it's close to exam period because I really need good music in order to focus on my studies. I attend Honors Day on Saturday and though it's just a simple meritorious academic award, it gives me that slight motivation to hold on. Well, like how they always say, if you want something, don't waste your time doing nothing. That's just too accurate. Like for example, the annoying part of being discipline is that everytime during weekends, if my Saturday are more productive than usual, my Sunday will have zero productivity. So I guess this is the first thing I've got to change.
"I regret it takes a life to learn how to live"
If you were asked to write a list of your own personal regrets, will you be able to?
There are certain regrets that we refuse to admit because it makes us feel uneasy, and it's as though saying that we had no regrets will make things better, or sometimes it's just me trying to brainwash myself that I didn't mean it that way and I deserved to be forgiven.
I took a long nap just now, and I woke up, suddenly I thought of the person that I've hurt terribly a few years back. We were friends - okay maybe a lil' bit more than friends - but we never crossed the line, and we have all things in common, I was truly glad to have met someone like him.
And then, his feelings changed and maybe mine did and I was unaware of them, and I got scared and I ran away. I told him I am so sure that I will never ever like someone like you so leave, oh yes that's how harsh I was.
Now that I absolutely know how it feels to fall for somebody, I found out that in fact I did feel a slight bit like the same way as he did. It wasn't wrong to push him away - I still think it was a right thing to do - but I could have done it differently, and that'd change so many things.
Met him a month ago and we passed by each other like strangers.
It is saddening because we used to talk about almost everything.
That slightest bit of regret and I often push that feeling into the corner of my heart.
