14 years old to 16 years old. It doesn't seem to be a long period of time, but trust me, you'll go through many changes in yourself, your life, your friends, everything, every single thing in your life. I agree that I changed, a lot. I don't know if I've changed to be a better person or what, but I did change.
Though I changed, I'm still myself. There are still some principles that I hold on to, and will never let go.
I don't know how do you live as who you are right now, but for me, live every single moment to the fullest is important. Living life to the fullest doesn't mean earning lots of money or get any high post in school, clubs or whatever. Even a simple 5 minutes of rest, that can recharge your own battery, is living.
I guess people misunderstood the meaning of living. Status, money, relationship and studies are important, but what's more important than yourself, and what you really want? We tend to change and transform to a self that we think we should seem to be, which is actually what we think others think we should seem. We hardly think about just for ourselves, without involving other people, no?
Just leave all your work and use a minute to think, how many times in a day, you really take a rest, not thinking about anything but yourself. Just yourself, without involving any school activites, friends, family? Just yourself. How many minutes do you give yourself everyday to actually know yourself better? Sadly, I don't. Not even one minute in a day. I just follow, I don't know where am I heading nor who am I following. I just do what I thought I was supposed to.
I find that really sad, it makes me feel like crying.
If you don't know yourself well, you don't know who you really are, how do you even get to know others in a better way? Just saying.
Anyway, enough of all those crap. I can't help it, Im sorry. As I was saying, yes I made an important decision. I'm not revealing what it is all about here. Those who're supposed to know will understand. Not trying to offend anyone here, but yeah. I made up my mind, and hey, be happy for me, cause I think that's one of the best choices I've ever made. Really.
No more blue colour, that's all I can say.
Going to Klang this Saturday. Lion's Charity Dinner. Can't wait. Sheen and Xuen are going as well. It's gonna be a good good night :) Next Monday, volleyball tournament for states level starts again. Missing school again. And Mr. Siva is just about to start a new chapter. How great can things be? Next Tuesday is my piano exam. Nightmare. Thats why I said, I can't wait for April to end.
Probationary Prefect interview. Not to say it was bad, but it wasn't good either. The questions that they asked me were so unexpected. Leo Board Members interview next week. Wish me luck.
Quite surprised that I got chosen as probate this year. Honestly speaking here. I really don't think I'm a good student. At least I don't think I'm good enough. I know people tend to judge prefects a lot. Seriously, they just don't understand half the things that prefects go through everyday. I'm saying this as a student, not a probate. Really.
This year really feels like the year when I was in form2. The only difference is, when I was form 2, I wasn't mature and strong enough to handle betrayals, insults and everything. Now I'm. Oh, and when I was form 2, I fear nothing. But then now I do. Fear.
Happy Birthday, Woei Cong!
Words can't explained how much I love the P package of friends. They're so awesome and they make me laugh every single day. Though I agree that they annoy me everyday just by talking when the teachers are teaching.
Yes, go ahead, don't reply, I don't feel a thing no more. Ha :)
Good night! Have a nice weekend :)
