People said when you're upset, make yourself busy. When you're busy, you really won't time to think about things that upset you so much, you'd be busy getting things done - This is actually really true. Of course, I didn't purposely give myself a lot of work, it's just like a teacher's thing - giving lots of work to students who are going face a major exam. But these few weeks gone by really quick and also.. very exhausting.
So this my daily routine: Wake up at 5, Reach school at 6, Stay in the prefects' room to print stuff/pack stuff/file in stuff/sleep/listen to music/get ready for the day till 6.45, go up to 5P (3 floors omg and it's right at the end of the corridor..) and take my books out from the locker + pack my locker cause it gets messy in a day i'm serious, then go downstairs and sit at the podium by 7, roll call starts and then assembly, then class starts at 8.10. School ends at 3.15. Meeting till 5.30. Wait at the LRT station with my mum for my sister until 7+. Reach home at 8+, dinner, bathe, end up in my room with a whole stack of homework at 9pm and by that time, I am already half asleep and can barely write.
Yes, all these have been my daily routine (for weekdays) for the past 3 weeks. Which actually explained why didn't I blog for so long. I wanted to blog during the beginning of CNY holidays but then my relatives always come at the wrong time. I have typed half of the post and was forced to stop doing so cause my relatives are already downstairs so I'd to cancel it because I know the next time I won't really be able to continue with that post already.
I had a lot of fun in school recently but at the same time, a whole lot of stress. I thought there won't be really any major changes in Form 5 except the fact that we're gonna get more work. But apparently, it's not. I can't exactly explain in specific what those changes are, I can't tell if they're good or bad but one thing I'm sure is, it's affecting me in different ways. Changing me into another person. Change is not always bad, but this time I can't tell if it's a positive thing or otherwise.
I am getting close to people - those I've never thought I will get close to. My seating partner is Amanda and I feel so lucky to be able to sit with her. I like people like her, simple. I like simple people and I feel the need of having these people in my life. I have James, Wen Yi and Debra sitting behind me, and they are all good people cause they make me laugh in the class. James always say things that make us laugh. Usually it's about food HAHAH. My lab partner is Jhun-Ho. Yes, for all labs. Chemistry, Biology, Physics and even Computer! HAHAH. It's amazing to even think of the fact that we've known each other for 11 years. 11 years!
During Biology double lessons, I will always have that 'radio' beside me. Jhun-Ho and Woei Cong are forever singing about those unknown songs and I always have to ask them to shut up because I can't hear anything from Madam Mazni and they'd listen to me. For 2 minutes? -_- Well, it's not like I really really mind (Yes I still mind if Woei Cong you're reading this HAHA) cause I can't exactly understand what madam is explaining anyway.
This holiday came just on time. I was close to breaking down. Sounds emo HAHA but then yes, I was so close to just break down and cry. It's not like I'm sad or anything but I really need to find a way to let it out.
Honestly, apart from not having the 'right' time to do so, I don't think crying will do any good, so I didn't. I just really need someone to listen to me. For hours and not get bored to my pointless dramas. Yes those dramas are pointless but they happened in my life - which I find them so sad and pathetic as well as a waste of time yet I can't make myself not care; maybe it's pride maybe it's ego, I just do care though not for a long time - Listen to me for hours and not judge me in the end.
People in my life either don't have the time for me, or I know they'll secretly judge me, or they're the right one because what I said might affect them or they already have their own problems, or maybe the fact that I am feeling so clingy and I hate it.
But, to sum up all the bad things that happened in these 3 weeks: I don't know what to begin with, what to hold on to, and who to depend on.
One thing that even I found it surprising was: I admitted in front of people that I am stressed up. I tried to deny that fact at first because I thought it's nothing much and what Gareth said kinda gave me a hard knock on my face.
You're. You have never used capital letters that often before.
Okay wow. Thanks. So much love.
Ugh okay fine I admit :(
I was totally considering to talk to Mr. Cephas again but then I thought I should talk to Madam Ewe first and then here comes holiday :D It's not the festival which matters now. It's the holiday - a week of family, food & enough sleep! :D
With the bestfriends at Alexis :)
So many amazing things happened too :D Okay sorry I like to save the best to the last. Besides having amazing people around me during lessons (Well I am serious they are really nice people and I love my class hehe) I enjoyed wearing the new uniform too HAHA. Though the blazer makes me feel like I seriously can't breathe but it's pretty cool since all prefects are wearing the same thing hehe.
Internal camp was.. satisfying. I only slept for an hour but it felt good HAHA. I don't really know how to explain how fun it was but as part of the organizing committee I was pretty satisfied with what we've done. Yes we had the 'Know Me Better' session and my group members cried while talking. When you're up to certain problems, it always feel good to know that you're not the only one, isn't it?
Well I got closer to many people because of this camp. Went home and had a good sleep :D So which made me look forward to Leadership Camp even more hahha. Well my schedule is packed recently and hmm I really need to find time to study HAHAH.
With Rachel at Bangsar :)
Went out with the girls yesterday evening and had a whole lot of fun and laughter :') We were hesitating and thinking we should go in to the bistro as no one was at the entrance and when we look inside it's like all adults so I thought it's for some above 18 people.. AHAHA.
Then we waited till Sheen reached - she was 37 minutes late! HAHAH - then we went again and saw a little boy inside and we were all like -_-. I order a Salmon Sandwich and it's okay. They had some wine sauce thingy which we named it 'The Adult Taste' HAHA.
Had a great time talking about school and everything. Talked about the past years. Talked about Australia, annoying teachers, the irony part of life and littlest things that took up the most room in our heart :)
Took quite a few photos - which we don't usually do that :)
Enjoy the rest of the holidays! I seriously wish it's a little longer HAHA.
Have a nice day!
