Honestly, I don't feel like blogging about today at all. I feel so tired, though it wasn't a busy day, but after a long holiday, first day of school really can gives you hell.
After assembly, Madam Jamaliah annouced the name list for each classes. And I heard my name for L class. Ended up with the same class as Sheen-Le. I was really happy. I swear I heard my name, lots of people did. I wasn't being too exicited, let me repeat this fact again, seriously!
Yes, actually I wasn't supposed to be in L, P instead. I was like omg, why did this happen to me? But then I think again, aint I used to it? Have it and lose it the next minute, like I don't deserve it, just like it was not mine at all, like I snatched somebody else's stuff, on purpose.
And then I think again, while my homeroom teacher was talking about her 16 years old life - I don't even know her name at that time - Can I actually get to know everybody? then I guess I understand myself better. I really hate being all by myself, and feeling lost.
The new guy sitting beside is so quiet, he doesn't talk at all. Unless I talk to him. I feel so...annoyed. It made me thought: hey, you're not the only one feeling lost okay? Quit giving me that look. I was trying my best to act cheerful, act like I am happy and excited so that I get the chance to talk and social with the others. I don't want to be those that sit at the corner and be pissed and make people think that because she doesnt have a close friend in the class thats why shes angry. Nobody knows it's not like that, really.
I just feel, not good. Why is it always things that I love and it belongs me, and the next minute, it just has to be taken away?
Well, something good had happened too. Not good, but at least it made things little better.
# before I knew I was in the wrong class.
# I have got Jhun-Ho and Shaun Yap ( a new guy from my primary school ) sitting in front of me.
# HueiMinn, Ching Ching & Emily Chan sitting behind me, makes me feel like, hey smart people are all around me 8D
I guess, no, I am pretty sure actually, I just want to enjoy my life to the fullest. I know it's going to be horrible for the following weeks, but so what, I am going to deal with those people, those add maths questions and everything.
So, how was your first day of school?
