Okay, seriously, I know this is a super boring opening for a blog post since I've used it for like really long, I know. Oh well. Sorry for not blogging for so many days, I wasn't busy with anything, really. Instead, I was kind of like watching movie, and doing things that God knows better than I do - damn what was I doing? - wasting all my time. Honestly, I have not done anything productive. I was pretty upset but anyways, this happens every holiday.
I hope the school can well, let us divide our 14 days holidays into 7 packages. Well we go to school for 3 days and have 2 days off and so on. This is so much more better. It's like just 2 days, then I will be like OHMYGOD just 48 hours better appreaciate the days. Oh well, now I've got 14 days in a row - technically 7 days left but yeah - and I've wasted 7 days doing nothing.
I got my KGT and Sej kursus 80% though, but right now I am so, so lazy to finish up the left over 20%. I went to xuen's house and got everything done in a day. Amazingly fast, well, at least faster than expected. I was quite happy actually, ahahah, well I had Mcdonald for lunch. It's the first time I eat Mcdonald after so many years. Like, so many years.
Tuesday gathering, doubt that I am going. My dad is always busy. Probably I will just stop by for a while and leave, unwillingly. Nevermind, it's not it is the first time right? I borrowed "Nineteen Minutes" from the school library. & I didn't really read it, like read. I read a few pages then I will be doing something else. I don't know why, I always wanted to read that book, but now I am like, don't feel like reading most of the time. This weird, but true, normally people want things that they don't have, and once they have whatever they once desire, one thing they never learn is to appreaciate. I guess I am just like one of them.
During the holiday, I don't have the feeling that I am resting. I am, physically. I guess I've actually learnt something during the holidays. Not to hope for, too much. Do what is within your limitation and that'll be good enough. Good enough.
I think I need a hair cut before I get bald. I don't think I will look good if I am bald so I better cut my hair, shorter. Not very short but yeah. I've got 4 Chinese essay to finish. I am so so dead cause I've no idea what to write, yet.
Did you guys read the newspaper? Look how the world had become. It's not like I don't like reading the newspaper. The news just freak me out. It makes me afraid, you know. Afraid to step out of the house and probably somebody will just kidnap me or something - anything. I mean, there are people that have lost their mind, and they are doing something that they thought were right... How can such people exist? They are doing things that they thought were right, when it's terribly wrong. Probably they think they have the right to do so. I mean, don't they learn about hak individu? We even memorise that moral definisi. And yet there are people who just can't understand.
I guess I am really not that kind of newspaper reader that will just read and forget. I can't read. Once I read I will be like, what the hell do they think they're doing and I will not be able to forget their freaking faces and thats just so not worth my brain memory.
Seriously, this kind of people really shouldn't exist.
I swear I won't have the intention to know what's going on anymore. I will just pretend that the world is a really, okay place and just be careful no matter where I am. I don't want any fear when I am out cause I am 15 and I am already 15. 14 and a half, fine.
Right now I pray that all the people I know will be fine and safe in this [insert adjective] world.
13 years old. Friendship meant everything.
What about 15 years old?
Nobody knows.
怕情绪失控着
怕我泪流成河
怕你说有些事勉强不得
