I know I've not been posting for a very very very long time since the last post which appeared to be on 16.08.09 which is quite a few days ago. To make it clearer, hmm. Its around 5 days. Wow. 5 days. I always wanted to come and blog but the movies are just so attractive :D Of course not the textbooks. Basically almost every weekend I'll bring home my SEJ textbook but I never read it. Its kind of pathetic but what to do? I really want to achieve a good result but nothing seems to matter now. Because the main aim and the only reason why I've been fighting is gone.
Lost & gone.
Its okay, I just need time to find back the feeling of life with aims. Maybe I don't need to look for it, it will eventually return, by the time I got over things. Maybe most of you just DON'T GET why I am so stubborn about certain things, why can't I just freaking get over it and everything will be just fine, why must I even give a damn about those who doesn't give a damn about me, why am I just so stupid in handling things. Its okay if you don't understand, because I don't, either.
Sometimes I really wish everything doesn't happen, and I am still the same fourteen year old girl that you once knew. If everything didn't happen, maybe when you met, I will be smiling instead of complaining to you what somebody did to me or what somebody say.
& I am really sick of posts that are complaining about what happened. But maybe someday when I read this back, I'll actually wonder why was I ever so upset over these things. THIS KIND OF THINGS. Hmm.
I just found out that I hasn't mention about the prefect farewell. First of all,
CONGRATULATION to
Esther Foo Wen Yen
as incoming school captain
Ooi Lik Sheng
as incoming special function coordinator
I didn't get the chance to actually work with you guys. I am sorry. The farewell was fine. I sat with the seniors instead of the juniors. I am still very touched that the seniors care about me (: Thank you for all the presents that you guys gave me. The food was quite okay. If you wanna know how was I feeling. One word : Complication.
I wanna post pictures on what present I received. But I can't find my camera from anywhere. Maybe my dad took it or something. Gotta wait.
Before I go,
Happy Holidays, people! (:
Please don't make me walk alone.